I think the presence of sun has a lot to do with perspective. Call it natural force or whatever, when the sun comes, so do the smiles. Let me put this in perspective for you. I am sitting at my after school job, monitoring Rehoboth's new weightroom, and about half the walls are windows. Right now the sun is at its brightest. It's at a height in the sky where it shines full force into every western facing window, and all I can think about is an everpresent reality: you're leaving in a week. I am leaving in a week.
Suddenly I feel like my time here at Rehoboth has been cut short, like I need another half a semester. Who knows, maybe it's the sun that's doing it to me, but I want to do more hiking, I want to continue to develop those relationships I have begun, I want to go to the flea market another time, and I want to drink coffee at Camille's. I want to see the Grand Canyon, I want to hike in the Hogsback hills, I want to climb Pyramid Rock, I want to be here when track season starts, I want to keep playing volleyball on Thursday nights, I want to keep teaching that awesome 6th hour class, I want to see Janelle's brilliant essay that will be published soon, I want to see the talent show, I want to see the boys' and girls' basketball teams go to state. I want to have just a few more weeks.
So why has my perspective changed so much from the first week? When I first got here, all I could think about was going back to Iowa and South Dakota, going back to live with Kearsen and Josh. I didn't know anyone.
Then the days just got cloudier and I got to experience life in a New Mexico blizzard. That should never happen. I got over my full-time section of student teaching, and now that I'm comfortable, I have to go.
And now that the sun is here, I have to leave it.
It's going to be a long Spring.
And you're going to have to bear with me...
Because the further and further I step out of Rehoboth, the greener and greener it looks to me.
I want. I want. I want.
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