Saturday, April 30, 2011

Indiana--Whereabouts?

It's official. I am an Indiana resident, complete with my licenses (which I should have aquired a long time ago) and voting registration. They told me where I vote each year. They took the old Montana driver's license without letting me say goodbye. I was 20, would turn 21 that summer while in Alaska, and it was the best picture ever taken at the license bureau, a million times better than a frightened and worried 15-year-old girl half-smiling because she'd just failed her first driving test. Anyway, the Indiana license bureau lady took my latest one, sealed it in a bag, and sent it off to somewhere in the government.
This happened about a month ago.
Since then, and since summer, the only places I'd really toured in Indiana were Merrilville and Valpo because of their shopping districts. I've also been watching Parks and Recreation, which is set in a small Indiana town.
Yesterday I heard a feint calling: "Just drive. Juuuuussssst driiiiiive." Kidding. Not sure I did. But, anyway, I practically ran away from school, hopped in my car, changed into jeans at home, grabbed a Bible and left.
Before I left for Indiana last summer, Dad had set a new alas in my backseat. "You'll need this." From years of trucking he knew every major highway from LA to New York. He knew all the little highways and backroads to bypass weigh stations when a load was too heavy. "Thanks, Dad," I filed through the pages to Indiana, its territory still so unfamiliar. They had many roads, quished closely together, it looked like. Montana is this huge open space, where roads mostly follow the land, where you can't just plow through mountains to get where you want.
I always wondered why he was such a big dreamer, why one small idea was not quite enough for him, why he had a bigger idea forever brewing in his mind, and now I think I understand a little more. These backroads of the US have an unchartable terrain. Just think of the first men and women who settled here and there and staked their claim on the soil. They might have drawn maps of the territory, marked a river here and there, sent it back home for others to see, but you don't understand it until you go there. Try to be narrow minded while traveling the world. I dare you.
The music was loud, the windows were down on this 60+ degree day, and my car Electra was fully quipped, atlas and all. I followed a couple country roads, hit a couple backroads, found another highway, and kept driving. Kouts. Lacrosse. Went South from there, following nature preserve signs.
The Kankakee river is almost overflowing right now. Jim, the man from whom I rent, told me back in October that the river is unnatural. DeMotte and surrounding towns are built on a marsh, so the people of Jasper county and other areas built it up in order to irrigate blueberries, strawberries, and corn. So when the river overflows, and it overflows often, the town deals with flooding.
I followed the Kankakee river a little ways then crossed it on a country backroad. Potholes everywhere. Soon after I parked my car and marked on the map where I'd just traveled. Then I saw it. Bass Lake. 15 miles to the East.
A person ought always to keep driving.
The terrain, the understanding you get from just going a bit further...suddenly the map you see becomes real, and you begin to believe there are such places not just know they exist.
Not that Bass Lake was brilliant. Not that I hadn't seen a hundred little lakes just like it before. Not that I didn't think a tiny Montana mountain lake was more thrilling. No, I didn't sit there in awe or marvel at this lake. Instead what made it beautiful, what makes everything beautiful in the evenings, was the sun. It had begun to set over me and my Navajo blanket and Bible and books. In time I'd like to discover every part of America where the sun touches down on our hungry crops and beautiful stretches of beaches. It is a yearning deep within me.

Last night as the sun was just going down, I read Psalm 84: "How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord Almighty! My sould yearns, and even faints for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. ...Better is one day in your courts than a thousand eslewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked. For the Lord God is a sun and a shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withold from those whose walk is blameless. O Lord almighty, blessed is the man who trusts in you."

Get to know a place. Let the sun shine on it. And let God bless you.

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